I have this habit of when there is too much romance on a novel I am reading, I pause and make my eyes wander around just so my mind would be clear of such thoughts. Sensing this from the book I was reading earlier, I took a break from it. As I shut the book and gently place it across the table in front of me, my wandering eyes stopped and met someone’s gaze . In that single moment, my instinct told me to smile, and I did the kind of smile I show when I see old friends. Yup, we’re definitely friends despite everything. And I got a smile and a wave back as a quick response. Then I sat there silently, not even acknowledging what just happened by keeping mum about it from my cousin beside me (she hasn’t got a clue at all). I forgot how long before someone playfully tapped my left shoulder and I immediately lifted my face up to see who it was. Contrasted by the mall’s ceiling lights, I saw an outline of a familiar face grinning at me and at the same time asked how I was. Without hesitation, I smiled and answered the question with the same enthusiasm as when I talk to my close friends, because I think we were sort of close, in a way, back then. We made small talk and of course, I introduced my cousin beside me, which I almost forgot. Then I decided to make a wave good bye (to save us from an awkward silence waiting to happen), twice in a row because the first one was kind of not high enough to be acknowledged. Then we bid good bye and that was all that is left of it.
They said be with someone who you would be proud of if he was your son. The problem was, I already found someone who I’d love my son (if I’ll ever have one) to be and that is Landon Carter and he is a fictional character. First, let me admit that as a young girl I never liked the movie A Walk To Remember that much. I find it a bit too romantic and unreal. Maybe I still find it that way somehow. But then I read the novel and then my life was changed. Page by page I found myself falling in love with Landon Carter. Let’s be honest, there is a fine line between being nice and a jerk and Landon walks in that line. Nobody wants to be with someone who gives them all they want all the time, if you act that way be wary because you might be on that place we modernly call the friendzone. Nobody wants to be with someone who is a total jerk that he loves no one but him and him alone. But Landon, he is the kind of guy who knows how to have fun and yet keeps this certain vibe of being someone who is actually worthy in this world. The thing with Landon is that you cannot put him in a label because he keeps everyone on their toes, with him you keep guessing what he’ll do next. His ability to be someone you’d never expected him to be is what made him interesting and adorable at the same time. He may mess up sometimes (like the time he denied hanging with Jamie) but he’ll do something to make up for it, I am not talking about overused ways (like with flowers and cards and boring sorry routine) but with defend-Jamie-from-his-“friends” or owning-up-to-his-mistakes-and-suffer-the-consequences-until-forgiven kind of things. Finding someone who values you like that is like finding an internet connection in an uncivilized part in Africa, not an easy job but still possible. No other creature can measure up to things you did for Jamie, from your genius ways of fulfilling her bucket list (that two places at the same time moment killed it) to asking your parents for help (this is saying something because we all know how you are with them). And Landon, you had me at the “No you’re 18, you’re perfect.” part. I swear if you said that to me, I will not walk away from you (like what Jamie did), I will hug you instead.
* Please note that I wrote this at 2:17 in the morning and you probably think I am weird for having thoughts like this at this time of the day, and I do apologize.